Zion. She was my first trip out west. I was completely unprepared for the grandeur of the American desert and the ancient formations of Navajo sandstone that she has to offer. The towering red walls of the canyon that seem to some how converge with the sky when you strain your neck just to gaze vertically. It is apparent where the rain escapes, because the wall is stained black from the seeping water. There is promise of life in the hanging gardens that reside in the crevices above. As unprepared as I was for the beauty, I felt I was just as unprepared for camping in the desert, although you wouldn't know Zion is part of the desert when in the canyon. Growing up in the Eastern United States, where hills and mountains are painted in thick blankets of thriving forests, camping beneath the trees is something I'm used to. Camping in the desert was not something I was acquainted with, but I was determined to do it "right" and spend my time out west immersed in nature. Tent camping included. So, I booked our trip with a guide company in hopes of preventing myself from accidentally eating some kind of western berry that resulted in my untimely death.
This trip feels like a lifetime ago and simultaneously only yesterday. It's the kind of trip that lures one into planning the next trip before the current one is even over. The kind of trip that grows one's affinity for the wild in a way that cannot be undone. It's not hard to figure out why the Anasazi and euro-Americans decided to inhabit Zion. The Virgin River cuts through Zion Canyon, a gorge where erosion from the river continues to sculpt the canyon walls. Named "the place of peace" by Mormon settlers, life in the gorge is luscious and green and is outlined by the towering Temple of Sinawava. We hiked to the rim of the canyon via Observation Point Trail to the breathtaking, iconic view that Zion is known for. Reaching the rim was different than any other feeling I've had before. One of pure astonishment and disbelief. A feeling that one could not possibly deny that a god exists in the presence of such a wonderment. "How in the world could this possibly exist without a god?" I kept repeating to myself. A feeble attempt to wrap my mind around something so marvelous. I decided then and there, that if standing upon the rim of Zion were to be the last thing I did, I would be satisfied.
Nature has a way of easing my anxiety. I feel uneasy in the presence of others and often think others know how uncomfortable I am based on my responses. But, somehow the anxiety is melted away in the place I believe is the easiest to find God. Although, we weren't alone on this trip, just being in the presence of such beauty was comforting. We had two backpacking guides and conglomerate of interesting people that joined us on our western adventure. A horse surgeon. An architect. Two millionaires (or so they told us) who kept insisting that we drink a terrible margarita mixer they bought from the local convenient store right before we entered the park. And a middle-aged single father who happened to be in the same fraternity as Daniel and who happened to take quite a liking to us.
The nights were chillier than I expected. Although I'd read about the cold desert nights in a school textbook when I was younger, I was still surprised. Probably because the astonishment of each one of Zion's breathtaking views I came across left me in a surprised state of mind. After miles and miles of hiking each day, the exhaustion that overwhelmed my body made me grateful for the slight chill in the air. It helped the dried sweat feel less sticky on my skin. "I want to do it right in the American West"...I obviously underestimated my love for baths. I had a slight tinge of humiliation when we boarded the plane back to Nashville, and a young child in the aisle across from us made a comment to his mother about our less than great smell. Her embarrassment was obvious as she mouthed sorry. Her quiet, but regretful acknowledgement subsided my own disconcertion.
The thing is, there are not many things that would make me choose to be miserable over hot showers and feeling well-rested. But, to spend time in the American West is one of those times I would.